It’s a word bandied around quite a bit these days.
“Find a balance.” “Inner balance.” “Strive for balance”.
Sometimes if a word is overused in our media driven culture, we become immune to it. The concept begins to bleed around the edges and the essence is diluted.
When this occurs, something extreme might have to happen to jog our memories. To remind us why certain words are worth valuing.
This week, I encountered that extreme reminder. I lost my balance. Literally and figuratively. I suffer from episodes of positional vertigo, which translated means: I get dizzy.
Not just regular dizzy, but room spinning, drunk lurching, stomach churning kind of dizzy. I lose my equilibrium. Truly. Balance becomes a distant memory. One moment I am leaning down to put Lilly’s water bowl on the floor. The next moment I am on the floor.
It’s not fun.
But I think it might be my body’s way of tapping me on the shoulder and whispering in my ear, “Slow down”, “Pay attention”, “Breathe”, “Do not take this all for granted”.
Our bodies talk to us in ways we don’t always realize, and sometimes we just need to pause and listen – even if that pause comes in between rushing to doctors on a mission to ‘fix’ it.
Like tuning into the sound waves behind the static, occasionally we need to be patient and wait for the message.
My message wasn’t a subtle one. I stayed in bed for a few hours. I drank water. I let my daughter drift essential oils under my nose while I lay back like a queen. And surprisingly, she actually enjoyed the role reversal. She was grateful for an opportunity to look after me for once.
I haven’t regained my inner ear balance entirely, but a different kind of balance has been restored. I’m not just giving out all the time. I’m trying to notice ways this week in which I can receive as well. I’m more open to being nourished and appreciating that, rather than only nourishing others.
I’ve moved past the static, and the music is increasingly lucid and pleasingly clear.
What does your body need to tell you at the moment? Write from the POV of your body and see what she/he has to say. Keep your pen moving for ten minutes. Set a timer. Don’t edit as you write. Be open to receiving the message.